She left and I sat wondering there what would happen next Her hair on the pillow made me think there might be a chance I could be happy this time We rolled around all afternoon and lazily tried to have sex but just being next to each-other already felt too good Now I miss her by my side and going to sleep alone doesn't feel that good anymore once you get used to sleeping with someone next to you the empty space where she used to be seems like it could eat you whole Green tea and bananas and Rolling Stones in the background my head is in her lap I could get used to this Don't know how much I spent last night Don't really care For all it's worth I would do it again there's things money can't buy having her kiss me to sleep must be right on top who knows, it all might go back to the way it used to be but today wasn't a bad day to wake up no, today wasn't bad at all

I saw the genes of queens and kings on her face of peasants and mice in his place The papers talk about murder in the city But I've got my best shoes on to make me feel the touch of the streets There are women in the red looking like they just came from the war But all these people see is another mess abroad another Monday in the tube I'm hoping for the sun to finally hit us with it's grace Such has been the long winter this year in this forsaken place I could opt-out or drop in or tune out the noise but somehow her face burns in my eyes her face remains in my eyes I'm obliged to continue to try my best I have to run there's no time to rest If not for me, then at least for her or anyone who might come along the way They're advertising fitness but I couldn't care less I've always done better hanging on the fence Now as I line up with these people of all colors I'm beginning to think the only thing uniting us is the grey metal of the escalators I got my load of halogen at different schools And now I keep going by the rules of some fools One last time I tell myself again I'll never open this heavy factory door Until tomorrow comes and I'm back on the drawing board

I woke up today and asked myself what would be the things to say if I had to go now and there would be no way if I couldn't come back if I could not come back anymore What would I feel bad about what things I'd confess aloud maybe the times I was a douche what would be the words I'd use before it's time to go before it is my time to go Well I guess I would thank you all gathered around in yellow fall thank you for being there anyone have a smoke to spare? I bet they don't serve these where I'm going I was always tired of sitting by the sea waiting for some boat to come and make me feel free to take away some parts of my past Well at least I did try but I was just another guy Who laughed and cried and sang a bit now it's time to stop this shit Pray for me Pray for all the same things I did Sometimes on my own I would let myself go Walked right in to a mystery felt my body getting all blistery Oh take this poison away from my veins I was always tired of sitting by the sea waiting for some boat to come and make me feel free to take away some parts of my past Don't forget to write and don't forget to ask your mom and dad are here and you wish that this could last give them a call before it's too late and I guess to all the girls I'd say thanks for the good times I wish you could come with me I could use a couple of angels by my side I hope they're half as good to me as you have been The final thing I'd ask is for you to take my mask come here to sit with me oh I've never felt so free!

Might as well start to wrap this up even though Friday is still far away and I have no idea will she actually agree to meet me these songs I make loom in the background and if I'm lucky they might leave this room someday and reach someone who might need a helping hand Today a girl smiled at me on the street don't know why but it suddenly made me feel pretty good it's not much I know but I guess it was just the thing I needed in my current sour mood Guys I'll give you a piece of advice Don't shave Hell I could have gotten fired yesterday but it doesn't really faze me like it might somebody else all I care right now is these songs believe me or not, I just don't care I've literally been running home after work to get these done like digging holes in some faraway garden never knowing what might pop up next there's no thrill like creating stuff and while someone might come and knock over all the things you worked so hard to build at least they were real for a moment if not for anyone else, at least for you I can already hear the melody coming in now it's just finding out how the pieces fit together after a while it's just like someone else is writing them and you're free to put yourself aside and do whatever no song has ever stopped the world from turning so whatever man, do what you feel like it's really not that big of a deal I've already done multiple exorcisms on myself and I'd say I feel a certain lightness Stop trying so damn hard Sometimes I just care too much of the species whether it's New York or Senegal Helsinki or Tokyo We come a long way to stop now but then again, love is all it takes to stop us in our tracks and make us go crazy oh you're fucking crazy throw it all out the window I've been waiting for this for so long to put so many expectations in to one single person oh do you think the pressure might be too much?